I need something to propel me forward as a writer. I need to push myself. To quote the great Humphrey Bogart, "I don't mind a reasonable amount of trouble." (That's from The Maltese Falcon . ASIDE: If you haven't seen The Maltese Falcon you need to seriously reconsider calling yourself a highly functioning member of society.) See, crafting this manuscript will be trouble, but if I'm going to move forward toward my goal, further the Dream of my career, I need to sit my boney ass in the chair and churn out another manuscript. I can't justify spending upwards of $500 for a writer's conference in January if I don't head up there prepared.